What a difference a day makes….24 little hours. Up at the top of “feel good” and we can have the world by a string. The brakes go to the floor and emotions change all of a sudden to something we don’t understand.
Today I feel invisible. I really do. I don’t feel a real demand for any of my abilities and I feel anyone else could do it better. I feel like I am something that just goes along with the package. A good wife. A business partner. A mother. A grandmother. I compare myself to others and something I feel so inadequate.
I keep repeating “I feel”. I just remembered by dad always told me we just can’t go on feelings…we must function on faith. Okay, I am getting some answers to this awful “feeling”. (1) I have been married 49 years and no not all were wonderful, but through faith we are very happy and still in love. (2) Hudson-Gillmor Associates has been in business for 10 years and I know this business was started on FAITH. (3) God richly blessed me with a heart of a mother. Early years were sometimes hard. We had two in college at the same time and we depended on faith for grants, jobs and parking spaces at MU. (4) GRANDMOTHER: Yes, faith here too. We waited 11 years for prayers to be answered. I always wanted to be a good grandma like my “Granny Woodrum”.